new year

Every year since my Son left for the spirit world, certain dates on the calendar seem more difficult than others. Obviously getting through his birthday, angelversary, favorite holidays he loved and certain family dates are extremely hard. But for some reason, New Years has always hit me the hardest and seems to be the most painful one to pass through. While everyone around me is looking forward to the future with hopeful resolutions, I feel hopeful too, but in a very different way. As time here rolls on, the last thing I want is to be reminded that the distance is stretching between us. They say time here is an illusion and there really is no time in spirit. I guess because there you are always in the now?? But still, as long as I am here in the physical and years are moving along, I miss him more and more and don’t want others to ever forget about him. It is now my job to keep his memory alive for others. For me, he is very much alive in my heart. That will never ever change. Just knowing that another page on the calendar is turning and a whole New Year without him is passing over really hurts. Remember grief does not end when the calendar changes and a New Year does not erase what you have lost. If your grief feels a little bit stronger as this New Year starts, it doesn’t mean you are going backwards. It simply means you are going forward with a strong response to the pain of your loss, and you’re not alone. Be hopeful that this New Year will be softer and gentler and have moments of peace with the knowing your loved one in spirit is still very much with you in your heart.