not so merry

Waking up on Christmas morning when you have a special someone in Spirit isn’t always all merry and bright. I know we can have moments where our joy and our grief co-exist, but on a holiday like Christmas, the physical absence of our loved one is louder than usual. As I wake up this morning, I must admit, I am feeling a bit of melancholy as Jake’s presence is the only present I could ever want. Even with all I have learned about the afterlife and the awesome connection I still have with him, I miss him terribly not being here to celebrate all the little things we are going through as a family of three now, not four. For today, I will look extra hard for the signs he is around, because I know he is. And I will be forever eternally grateful for the almost 21 years we had together in this lifetime. I will let the old Christmas memories of the past, support me and pull me through the day, remembering with a grateful, full heart all the love we got to share together while he was here. I now have him in Spirit to support me and pull me through the years I have left here, until we can truly be back together again. So if you are not feeling so merry this morning, know you are not alone, and that’s Ok. Sending lots of love.