happy 30th birthday

Happy 30th Birthday to you Jacob! Today you would be turning 30 if you were still here on Earth. I always think about you and what your life would be like. As time is moving along here without you in it, I can’t help but wonder what you would be doing. It’s so very hard to see everyone around me that you knew reaching milestones you will never get to achieve. You have friends and family getting married, starting to have babies, and advancing in their careers. It makes me sad you won’t be here having a wedding to plan or having grandbabies for me to dote over. I’m wishing deep down things for your life could have been different but I realize that is not in my control. On a selfish level, I want you back here with me sharing our lives together because I really truly miss you so very much. But on a soulful level I do acknowledge that maybe you are exactly where your soul wanted to be. I am very proud of you and all the amazing ways you still show up for me. You help me and guide me and teach me so very much all the time. Perhaps you are doing more for me and my soul’s growth from the heavenly realms than you could have achieved as Jake here in the physical. For that I am eternally grateful and so very thankful. Happy Heavenly Birthday Jacob. I hope you are celebrating in a big way and I am sending you all of my love, always and forever. I love you!